Riruals & Reset

I recently performed my own ritual. Women often commerate events with rituals or ceremonies. I decided that  my rededication to my life as an artist should be celebrated. So I lit candles, said prayers and smelled the  amazing scent of red roses. No matter how busy I get with school, 5 kids, friends, family.. Charlie Maverick wont die but will prosper in 2014. I claim nothing but positivity this year, I will not fail! 

Riruals & Reset

I recently performed my own ritual. Women often commerate events with rituals or ceremonies. I decided that  my rededication to my life as an artist should be celebrated. So I lit candles, said prayers and smelled the red roses. No matter how busy I get with school, 5kids, friends, family.. Charlie Maverick wont die but will prosper in 2014. I claim nothing positivity this year, I will not fail! 

Mandela!

 

Pure inspiration. Ive never cried so much at a movie. However, I went to the movie in my feelings wondering if good men exist. I figured that Mandela was a man of great character and well he would be faithful and loyal. Well, after seeing all the women in portrayed in the movie, I got a little upset. Honestly started to believe that a man is inevitably going to cheat. I know my father has done some things but I'm not sure what exactly, even my faux father Bob Marley had his share. I know as humans we are not perfect,I get it. But, maybe what I've been saving myself for is unrealistic like a unicorn. I'm not looking for perfection but I do want something unconditional. However, I'm just not so sure why I long for a relationship when the loyalty and love I'm willing to give may be unrequited.

Single looks good on ME!

 So, I took myself to lunch to have some journaling time. The host lookedat me and said, "Just One?" I happily replied,"Yes love." He was like, " I thought You would be with a friend or a boyfriend." I ignored it got the menu & started scanning my options.  I strongly desire a relationship BUT I know as soon as I find someone, I'll devote myself to them & forget about everything else. Simgleness is the time for self-discovery & selfishness. I love spoiling myself. Ive decided to be my best boyfriend ever! 

 

Im definitely the ONE!!! 

Coincidence? I think NOT!

 

After last nights inspirational Oprah marathon, I woke up prayed ony dream. Got in my car & the radio has inspirational word on waiting on God because He wants to bless you when it is your time! Im at McDonalds with my foster son because, I need to take him to the doctor after we eat & I see the professor of Theatre! My dreams are going to happen

Brunch with Jesus

   

While my 4 foster children were out, I went out for brunch with Jesus. I told God how desperately I want to return to the arts & my waitress was a theatre major. As I waited for my coffee, I saw a guy I did a show with some semesters back.  I miss the arts but I really need to focus on what God has for me. I refuse to live a life without purpose and I totally need to get rid of this fear of peoples opinion. So cheers to hearing from God soon and praying that Im smart enough to listen & obey! 

College Dropout?

 

I'm not so sure I want to enroll in college for the Spring semester, I just don't see the point. I really want to pack up my things and move to Florida but I want to give myself a years time to do things that I have neglected to do but always wanted to do.

So here I am shamelessly going to do what I want to do for the first time. My friends graduate and don't have jobs and are not chasing the dreams they once had. I recommit to art and promise to stay loyal to MY dream and not listen to anyone else. Cheers to DREAMS!