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My first trip to Florida, God gave me the vision of opening up a home for abused and neglected girls. Growing up, I always had a heart for helping orgers and my heart was especially tender towars orphans. It was Disney's Escape to Witchback mountain that inspired my first  idea about starting a home. And though my passion and drive for this project has been on a rollercoaster ; God sent me a teammate with the same dream. Yesterday, we decided that we'd create a camp this summer to fundraise our the girls home! 

 So cheers to women who believe that through Christ you can do anything! I pray that Camp Turn Up is a success that brings us closer to helping many young girls in the future! 

I pray that God keeps us dilligent and helps us make it all the way through! So cheers to hard work and making a difference.

Morning Meditation

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Put all the children on the school bus extra early & despite all the things that stood in my way... I made it to morning meditation and at first I was neervous but  trying new things brings you out of your comfort zone, so I stepped on it and let out one cheerful, "Good morning." Surprisingly, I saw a tall lanky man that I knew from theatre! Surprise,Surprise. We sat and conversed in the studio! 

 

Isnt it beautiful? We chatted for a while and then we got right into breathing and meditation! During my process I made some silly mistakes. He showed me where the blocks and blankets were and I had no clue what I was doing so I grabbed a blanket and laid it out like it was naptime at preschool. As I watched him, he took the  folded blanket and sat on top of it to elevate himself from the floor. I felt dumb and fixed myself! 

Dont make that mistake folks! My other special moment was when I was focusing on my breathing, I started to feel  tension in my throat like maybe I was thirsty, so I swallowed. But, it didnt help, so I notified my instructor & told him I feel like I want to say something. I then told him about my singing addiction and how I have singing terrets! It was awkward but then we started chanting in a sing like manner and it was perfection! I love meditation! 

I dont want to be a Sloth anymore

Ive been sluggish & sleepy lately and Im convinced its because of my horrible eating habits and lack of excercise. So since the semester starts tomorrow, Im going to eat better and try some Yoga! 

Now once I get this eating under control, then I'll tackle hard core excersice! Charlie Mav has really got to look & feel better! Plus healthy hair needs a heathy body! So cheers to hair growth and a healthy body.

Late Registration

 

I registered for school today! Spring 2014. I'll graduate with my Bachelors Degree in Social Work December 2014! Despite that I've already helped start a home for abused & neglected children, this will simply make me credible. This degree feels like a bunch of wasted energy in the wrong direction but God doesn't make mistakes, so I'm sure there is a reason behind all of this madness. But at least I'll be able to say I graduated with a ton of experience  and a lifetime of memories! 

Riruals & Reset

I recently performed my own ritual. Women often commerate events with rituals or ceremonies. I decided that  my rededication to my life as an artist should be celebrated. So I lit candles, said prayers and smelled the  amazing scent of red roses. No matter how busy I get with school, 5 kids, friends, family.. Charlie Maverick wont die but will prosper in 2014. I claim nothing but positivity this year, I will not fail! 

Riruals & Reset

I recently performed my own ritual. Women often commerate events with rituals or ceremonies. I decided that  my rededication to my life as an artist should be celebrated. So I lit candles, said prayers and smelled the red roses. No matter how busy I get with school, 5kids, friends, family.. Charlie Maverick wont die but will prosper in 2014. I claim nothing positivity this year, I will not fail! 

Mandela!

 

Pure inspiration. Ive never cried so much at a movie. However, I went to the movie in my feelings wondering if good men exist. I figured that Mandela was a man of great character and well he would be faithful and loyal. Well, after seeing all the women in portrayed in the movie, I got a little upset. Honestly started to believe that a man is inevitably going to cheat. I know my father has done some things but I'm not sure what exactly, even my faux father Bob Marley had his share. I know as humans we are not perfect,I get it. But, maybe what I've been saving myself for is unrealistic like a unicorn. I'm not looking for perfection but I do want something unconditional. However, I'm just not so sure why I long for a relationship when the loyalty and love I'm willing to give may be unrequited.

Single looks good on ME!

 So, I took myself to lunch to have some journaling time. The host lookedat me and said, "Just One?" I happily replied,"Yes love." He was like, " I thought You would be with a friend or a boyfriend." I ignored it got the menu & started scanning my options.  I strongly desire a relationship BUT I know as soon as I find someone, I'll devote myself to them & forget about everything else. Simgleness is the time for self-discovery & selfishness. I love spoiling myself. Ive decided to be my best boyfriend ever! 

 

Im definitely the ONE!!! 

Coincidence? I think NOT!

 

After last nights inspirational Oprah marathon, I woke up prayed ony dream. Got in my car & the radio has inspirational word on waiting on God because He wants to bless you when it is your time! Im at McDonalds with my foster son because, I need to take him to the doctor after we eat & I see the professor of Theatre! My dreams are going to happen

Brunch with Jesus

   

While my 4 foster children were out, I went out for brunch with Jesus. I told God how desperately I want to return to the arts & my waitress was a theatre major. As I waited for my coffee, I saw a guy I did a show with some semesters back.  I miss the arts but I really need to focus on what God has for me. I refuse to live a life without purpose and I totally need to get rid of this fear of peoples opinion. So cheers to hearing from God soon and praying that Im smart enough to listen & obey! 

College Dropout?

 

I'm not so sure I want to enroll in college for the Spring semester, I just don't see the point. I really want to pack up my things and move to Florida but I want to give myself a years time to do things that I have neglected to do but always wanted to do.

So here I am shamelessly going to do what I want to do for the first time. My friends graduate and don't have jobs and are not chasing the dreams they once had. I recommit to art and promise to stay loyal to MY dream and not listen to anyone else. Cheers to DREAMS!

Im on the Pursuit of Happiness

 

I want to get back to this! Back to a time when I was truly happy!  True Friendship + Wild Adventures = The Time of My Life!!! Im going to turn my life around, bring on the amazing memories

Drive

 

I realized that things Ive accomplished dont mean much because Im not fulfilled. And now that I know this, I begin to make a u-turn to my passion to get on track with my destiny

New Year, New Moves

 

I’ve decided , I’d be REAL with myself this year. It’s my senior year of college and I confessed that I only changed my major for my parents and I hate what I’m studying and ultimately want to just follow my passion. That may have been a tough pill for my parents to swallow but boy am I relieved.  Destiny’s Child once sang, “Ain’t no feeling like being free.”

In this new found freedom, I realized that my dreams all revolve around art and I’m determined to find my purpose! I’d hate to be one of those people living day to day unfulfilled.  I’m excited to start this new journey and this new year.

I have 3 billion thing I want to try before I do so here goes my list… I hope some of this can get done in 2014

I want to record an album- I L O V E to sing and I want to give it a shot

I want to be a cool Youtuber- I tried it once and maybe if I had kept at it, I’d get somewhere

I want to have a successful BLOG- I love writing and I want to get better at it

I want to travel around the world & help people -  I’m truly passionate about it

 

So 2014 here goes nothing!